I've just had enough.

Seasick means you're getting sick because you're in the sea right? Well how come homesick means you're so sick of being away from home? In my point of view, homesick means you're sick of home. Since there's no term for that, I'm just gonna call it SICK-O-HOME! (yeah, kinda pirate-ish with the o).

My house sometimes just doesn't feel like home. Got no privacy. No one ever says thank you YET they expect ME to do so. They never keep their promises but they always expect ME to do so. They keep saying "Say sorry when you made a mistake." but when I do make a mistake to them and say sorry, they get angrier.

Seems like I never do things right. Seems like everything I do brings the world one step closer to doom. I listened to EVERYTHING they say and it seems like I never get it right. When will I get it right? When will you finally realize that I've been doing everything you said for the past 13 years?

Sometimes, I just have to forgive people who don't need forgiveness and apologize to people who don't need apologies.

Everything's my fault. I should always apologize for "my mistakes". I should always forgive people's "mistakes". I should always respect. I should always obey. I should always give up. I should always give in. I did everything to make you satisfied but you don't do the same to me. When will things finally turn around? When you realized your mistakes by the time I'm dead? Too late.

Brighton's Premiere Graduation

“18th June, 2011. Brighton Premiere Graduation.

We Are The Trailblazers”

These words were printed on paper, stuck to hard paper, and stuck again to a big black crepe paper. Today, 18th June 2011, is the graduation day for the students of class 2011. The first generation of Brighton JHS to graduate. Since it’s the first, they call it Premiere Graduation.

It wasn’t as crowded as the graduation for the other grades. But it meant a lot. Meant a lot for the 9th graders, and also for the 7th and 8th graders.

The 9th graders weren’t a lot. There were just 8 people. 8 people who have studied in Brighton JHS for 3 years. I, a 7th grader, only get to know the 9th graders for a year. Less than a year perhaps! But those days with them were just unforgettable. Every student has their own signature.

9th graders, a.k.a Trailblazers, will leave Brighton. They left a mark on Brighton that can never be removed. They will always be on their junior’s heart.

Trailblazers, I had an awesome day. Thank you everything. Thank you for the great memories and the experience. I’m gonna miss you guys so much. You will always be in my heart ♥

please don't go

selama gue duduk di bangku kls 7, gue udh banyak seneng banyak sedih. gue bikin temen baru, temen lama juga masih sama gue. selama di kls 7 gue tau orang mana yg ga bener, yg mana yg on the right way, yg mana yg........biasa aja.

selama kls 7, atau lebih tepat akhir2 kls 7, gue sadar gue lbh deket sama kakak kelas ketimbang sama temen sekelas. temen sekelas gue akhir2 ini ngejauhin gue. yaaa mungkin emng salah gue sendiri tapi cmon, gue udh berusaha. at least appreciate that?

deket sama kakak kelas itu enak bgt, ga boong. mreka lbh tua drpd gue jadi kalo ada apa2 mreka bs bantuin gue. mreka orangnya seru bgt. mreka suka gila2an, kayak gue.

tapi ada gaenaknya juga... karena mreka kakak kelas, suatu hari nanti mreka pasti bakal lulus trus ninggalin smp. pas gue kls 9 nanti, gue gaakan punya kakak kelas, krn mreka semua udh lulus. gue bakal kangen bgt sama mreka. mreka bisa bikin gue seneng kalo di sklh. they're the reason why my school is my home.

gimana nasib gue pas mreka pindah? gue mau ngapain pas mreka gaada? bengong sampe gue kesambet? sayat diri sampe mati? ga lah. gue harus cari temen. tapi gimana kalo temen itu gamau sama gue? ya, mungkin nasib mreka bukan jadi temen buat gue. tapi gimana kalo nasib gue punya temen itu masih 3 tahun lagi?

gue mau temen ga perlu yg kaya. gaperlu cantik/ganteng. gue cuma mau temen yg setia, pengertian, pehartian, trus ga malu punya temen kayak gue. gue gamau disakitin lagi. it hurts too bad it won't let go. I just need something, or someone, to make the pain go away even though the scar will remain.

mistaken

hello everebodeh~

post ini sebenernya lanjutan dari post sebelumnya jadi harap dibaca dulu post yg lama okehokeh? okeh ;)

jadi, sepulang dari cj, gue liat ada gelas kyk gelas champagne gitu di meja. trus ada minuman di dalemnya. trus bokap gue bilang "mir, coba deh. enak lho, manis." Setelah mendenger suara "enak", gue lngsng nyoba. 

Rasanya emang enak. Kayak jus apel tapi agak pait gitu tapi tetep enak. trus gue tanya ke bokap "ayah, ini apaan? kok enak bgt sih..." trus bokap gue dengen simple nya jawab "white wine dari Itali."

gue terdiam

kaget.

gue salah. ternyata itu white wine, buka jus apel. gue malu. malu banget sampe pipi gue merah kayak ketumpahan blush on.

bayangin. jus apel sama white wine. itu BEDA BANGET dan gue kira itu SAMA. bego nya lidah gue...

pas gue tau itu white wine...

gue: "itu white wine? biasanya enakkan yang red..."

bokap: "iya, ayah beli kemaren pas ada sale. karena dari Itali ayah beli aja"

gue: "oh.. beli lagi dong yah"

bokap: "iya, nanti ayah beliin. tapi kamu gantiin uangnya."

-_- gubrak dor prang krek preketekdungpret

akhirnya, gue nykp sama bokap minum segelas white wine malem2. white wine yang enak dan manis. saking manisnya gue kira jus apel.

jadi, malem itu gue ngerasa enak banget. depan laptop, dengerin lagu Mayday Parade, minum wine biar anget, trus chat sama pacar tersayang. feels like heaven yea~

oke. itu aja buat sekarang. babay. love ya~

another day, another emotion :| (another Indonesian post)

hai semuaaaaaaaa :D maaf ya, tapi untuk post ini gue pake bahasa indonesia lagi :| kalo pake bahasa inggris harus sopan, dan gue gabisa sopan untuk ini -_-v


jadiiii...... kan sabtu. pagi2nya taekwondo gitu. eaea calon atlit/atlet/whatever it is dah tau ah bodo amet. nah abis latian gue mau ke petronas nih, ke syukuran kawinan guru gue yang keren banget B-) kan gamungkin gue abis latian langsung ke kawinan orang toh? bau, keringetan gitu ew ew jijik mamen! terpaksa gue pulang dulu, mandi dulu. gue mandi tadi secepet mungkin lho, 2 menit! *gerakan hemat air*


ternyata, 2 menit tetep terlalu lama....


setelah selesai mandi, gue disambut dengan telepon dari orang2 stress gajelas nyuruh gue cepetan. WOY! GUE MANDI 2 MENIT MASIH KELAMAAN APA? LO KAN ENAK PAGI2 GAADA KERJAAN. GUE? BANYAK KERJAANNYA! GET THE FUCK OUT!


stress badmood tingkat dewa banget tadi pagi. rasanya kalo ada yg nelpon pengen gue bilang "neraka nunggu lo" trus langsung end call. tapi, berhubung gue orang baik (tsah!) gue masih angkat telpon *tepuk tangan* *standing ovation* *lempar tomat*


dan pas udah nyampe di petronas, nasib gue tambah buruk. kenapa? inilah:
- rambut masih basah. sedih malu2in diri
- sakit perut grgr belom makan. sengsara banget.
- duduk di mobil temen di paling belakang sendirian. sms temen gabales. jahat men :'(
- dan, yang paling gue benci, DOMPET KETINGGALAN!


dompet ketinggalan. sip banget. cuma bawa 5 ribu. SIP BANGET!!!!!!-___-t
kesel banget. langsung ilang mood ngapa2in. gamau ngomong ke siapa2. the fuck bro you ruined my morning!


trus... sorenya juga fakap.


kan anak kls 9 pada ke cj tuh. naaahh drpd di rmh gue bete, gue ke cj aja. trustrus gue kan ikut temen gue nih. nah gue ajak dia. trus dia labil labil gajelas gitu! ish fakapppp!!!! trus akhirnya gue di drop di cj. sendiri. nasib oh nasib. daaan ternyata anak kls 9 pada nonton film. pas gue mau beli tiketnya, udh terlambat. alhasil, gue nunggu di cj dengan uang 5 ribu selama satu setengah jam. yep, 90 menit. selama anak sd ngerjain ujian. gue mondar mandir kayak orang gaada kerjaan. mau makan gaada duit sih ya mau ngapain lagi? sendirian pula-_-


lalu, gue duduk di starbucks. sok keren, duduk di starbucks. numpang doang. gabeli apa2. malu juga lama2-_- cek tas. ada botol minum yg kosong, earphone, uang 5 ribu sama tmpt kacamata. buka tempat kacamata. OH MY GOSH! ada uang 20 ribu di dalemnya O_O gue seneng nya minta ampun kayak anak kecil pindah rumah ke disneyland. dan...... gue langsung beli lollipop rasa ceri di starbucks \(^o^)/ HAHAHA bego banget ya gue.... *nyadar diri* *iris tangan* *ga  mati2* *nyadar dirinya gabisa mati* *kaget*


abis beli lollipop, gue keatas, ke 21 nya. gue duduk di depan pintu keluar. pas pintu nya dibuka, gue nyari2 anak kls 9 kayak orang nunggu tamu di area arrivals. dan tiba2...... gue liat mereka! anak2 kls 9! aaaaa senengnya minta ampun. akhirnya gue ada temen. rasanya mau nangis seneng liat mereka :'D *lebay*


setelah mereka keluar, mreka ngomongin ttng filmnya. yaampun gue lngsng sedih banget ga nonton. rasanya pengen bunuh si mbak jual tiket grgr ga jualin ke gue -_-t trus abis itu ngobrolngobrolngobrol trus pulang :| tapi.... pas pulang seru banget. di mobil kakak kelas gue tuh seru banget! rame, ketawa2 mulu, anaknya asik2, ga nyesel deh ke cj! yg nyesel tuh ikut temen gue pas paginya. di mobil temen gue ga ngapa2in. BETE! tau gitu gue ikut mobil kakak kelas gue aja.... *nangis* *nyesel* *sayat diri*


Anywaaaay~~~~~ hari ini yang bikin seneng itu cuma kakak kelas gue. mreka emang orang paling asik di dunia! sayangnya mereka kelas 9, jadi mreka bentar lagi pindah :'( sedih banget yaampun... I'M GONNA MISS YOU GUYS SO DAMN MUCH!


okay, itu aja ya sekarang. mirna nya mau pacaran galau dulu. babaaaay~

stress :|

okay. di post ini gue ga pake bhs inggris dulu. ga mood ngomong sopan *wes-_-*
gue ga main nama. gue blng dia aja. okeh? oke.


gue tuh udh bbrp minggu ini dijauhin. gue dibilang berubah. okay, pertama nya gue keras kepala (yaiyalah kepala gue ada tulang keras lu kira kulit doang?-_-) dan gamau percaya. tapi lama2, gue nyadar gue emang berubah. gue nyoba jadi gue yg dulu, tp gue udh terlanjur dijauhin. gatau knp, skrng temen gue yg deket cm temen gue yg cowok. dan dia mantan gue. screw that fact, mantan ya bodo amet ga penting buat gue. dia tuh yg baikin gue trs nemenin gue gitugituuuuu...... point it, dia tuh temen yg deket sama gue pas gue lg butuh temen. nah, kalo gue main sama cowok, nanti yg cewek pada blg "mirna main sama cewek mulu, flirting. kasian gavin nya" WOY! gue deketin lo, lo malah jauhin. gue main sama cowok, salah. terus aja gue gausah punya temen. lgpl, kan ini dia yg deketin gue, bukan gue yg deketin dia. kalo urutan meja berubah, dia yg mindahin meja dia ke sblh gue. gue ga minta dia gitu, tp dia mau sendiri.


jujur, gue lebih suka main sama cowok daripada sama cewek. bukannya ada maksud apa2 yg mencurigakan gitu. kalo main sama cowok tuh lebih asik gitu. kalo main sama cowok kyk kalo gue cerita gitu gaada yg gue tahan. cmn krn gue main sm cowok artinya gue suka mreka semua atau selingkuh gitu ya. bitch yg mikir gitu go to hell please! gue butuh temen. orang yg bisa bikin gue seneng, yg bisa nemenin gue, yg bisa gue ceritain panjang lebar.


skrng lg uas, nilai gue menurun. grgr masalah ini di otak kecil gue, nilai menurun. ditambah masalah di rmh. gue stress. gabisa mikirin pljrn. tolongin gue dong, sekali ini aja. kasih tau gue lo mau apa. mau gue minta maaf? oke, gue minta maaf. mau uang? ke bank sono. mau cinta gue? sorry, i'm taken-_-

Photography Hunting: BUPERTA

so yesterday, I had a photography hunting with my photography club pals! They are Gaby, Dimitri, Gaby (yes, we have 2 Gabys in our club), Mr. Eagen (our photography teacher) and Della as our model. Dina and Dony were supposed to join but they can't :(

As I arrive in Buperta (a campsite), I saw Mr. Eagen sitting alone. I also saw 5 bikes. I got off my car and waited for the others to come. Not long after that, the rest of the club came and we got on our bikes and start riding it around Buperta. Suddenly, one of the bike's tire had a hole. The tire became super flat and we can't ride it. So we just start to take some pictures first. When we're done, we were stopped by 2 securities of Buperta. They said that we need license and permission to take pictures and blablabla. Then he ask if we want to settle the problem in the office or right there. He also said that if we go to the office, we should pay 100K rupiah, but with him it's 50K. Then our teacher bargained and the officer said we can just pay 30k. So our teacher gave him the 30k and we left. We try to  find more locations but it was really hard and we were really tired. so we end up with only 3 scenes hahaha.

When we were exhausted already, we decided to end the hunt and head to…. MACDONALDS! So you see, Buperta and McDonalds are side by side so we can just walk there. In McD, we sat down in the corner under the AC. We ate lunch, we paid our teacher for the hunting expenses, and we just have a long chat! No matter how exhausted you are, you are never too tired to talk! It was soooo fun. I had a great time, thanks to them. LOVE YOU GUYS! <3

keep on checking my blog for new posts ;D

xo, M

one of those random post

this is gonna be some of my random post. if you're up for it, keep on reading! if you're not, well keep reading cos i dont care! :-D


okay, so..... 


1. PSKD Mandiri Go Green Competition
so PSKD Mandiri is a school in Jakarta and it's going to hold a competition about environmental leaders. I don't technically join the competition, I'm gonna attend the seminar and on the following friday I'm gonna present what I've got from that seminar to my schoolmates. the ones who are really joining the competition are dimitri (making presentation), gabriella, della, gabrielle (recycling), michelle and chelsea (poster designing) while jez, bryan, marvin, rezha and I are going to attend the seminar :-D


2. Picnik!
lately, I'm having fun editing photos in picnik.com lol. I love the frames and, of course, THE STICKERS!!! ESPECIALLY THE TOMBOTS AND THE ANIMALS ONE!!! they super cute!!!!!! try it!


3. IT Project!
my class is having an IT project and we're shooting a short probably-about-10-minutes movie lol. it tells about.... aaa I can't say it! sorry readers, but you just gotta wait till I post it right here in my blog (or probably a link that directs you to a website with the movie haha). still in the process of shooting, haven't got into the editing part yet, but really looking forward to viewing it!!!


well, that's it for now. keep on reading. leave a comment ;)


xo, M

one word explains how I've been feeling: TIRED!

Heyya readers! I'm superduperextrakilomegagigatera tired. I didn't get enough sleep, I got to go to places, sleep late - wake up early, tired. I got sooo many things to do. If I have a to-do list, I bet will 50 feet long. Okay, that's such a wild imagination hahaha… Well, I don't know how long it'll be but I bet it's long.

Okay, in case you didn't know, I'm joining a taekwondo championship-test tomorrow. It starts at 7, so I gotta be there lyk around 6.45 and I bet I'll get the last call bcs of my height and weight. Well, yesterday I had sport in school. Today, I had taekwondo practice (which was super boring bcs it was always the same. I was really hoping for fighting-exercises) and photography ryt after it. Tomorrow, I gotta wake up early and be in school at 6.30 to go to the championship-test thing. And idk how long it'll be so idk when I'll finish. I sure I finish fast hahaha.

Oh yeah, next week I got this Go Green competition by PSKD Mandiri (a school here in Jakarta). So, my teacher appointed me to join the seminar competition along with 4 others, and those 4 others are boys so I'm the only girl. So next week I gotta wake up early, then go to school, then ride the school car to PSKD Mandiri. My other friends also joined the other competition lyk the recycling, making poster, and making presentation competition. Wish us all luck so we can win them! :-D

next two weeks….. PHOTOGRAPHY HUNTING! yea, going to the nearby campsite to take some pictures with my photography fellas. Can't wait! Sadly, I can't use my own camera since mine's broken and my dad doesn't want to bring it to the service center. My teacher said it's okay to use his but I just don't want to bother him. And besides, when I'm using his, I can differentiate my pictures with his. Well, of course the bad ones are mine haha.. The bad news about that is…. I might have to wake up early in the morning and go to school again. I LOVE going hunting with my phtgrphy fellas but I surely hate waking up early in the morning lol.

Okay, so basically I gotta wake up early every weekend. Talk about not enough sleep and baggy eyes. Oh my gosh when can I wake up late and nobody cares? Bears are lucky. They sleep the whole winter, and they're super cute!! Wanna be lyk them hahaha just kidding.

Okay, that's it for now. See ya guys later on the next post.

"Live! Love! Sing! Dance! - Paula Abdul"

xo, M

10th March 2011

what's up readers? sorry i haven't post anything for a days. well, i guess it's about a week. really miss my blog, but time wasn't on my side. I got work to do, gotta study for tests, and so on. Luckily, my final tests are over so I'm back on the blogging road B) haha…

This week was pretty busy for me. study, write this, type that, send there, accept here, do this, do that, and many more. but i'm glad that's all over now :D now i can relax, hang out with my friends, sleep all day, party all night (by myself) hahaha!!!! I got a week of holiday. I wonder what I'm gonna do… I think I'm gonna stay at home on the weekdays since no one wants to take me somewhere. I guess i got a date with my laptop, internet, and mr. pillow lol.

okay, i think this is it. sorry if it's pretty short. the stories that i have are kinda personal so im not gonna post it haha. see ya readers ;p

xo,M

LAUGHS!

so yesterday, i brought my laptop to school. when it's time to study, i put my laptop on a table in the corner of the class. on the last subject, we had the lesson in the library. after class, everybody got out first except me and my friend. when i came back inside, i saw some of my "friends" already using my laptop and gonna use it to TAKE PICTURES. lyk seriously, don't u get tired of seeing urself? i do._. i mean, it's okay for them to use it, bet they should've ask first bcs i gotta hide some of my important documents. i don't want anybody to see things on my laptop. and also, it's my laptop. i don't need pictures of anybody else. don't have a laptop? go get one! if u only want the webcam, there are MILLIONS of them in city! i was soo pissed that i didn't want to talk to them and i just went back to the library. in the library, 3 of my friends are there. i decided to SECRETLY record their action. then, my other friend come and make the video better!


I REALLY wanna upload the video, but the internet connection sucks. so sorry readers :(


oh well, see ya next post


xo,M

27th February 2011

Hellooooo people! :D miss me? Of course not -_-" when did I last blog? I really forgot hahaha... So anyways.. This is the first time I blog from my phone! Yeay ahaha... Of course, I'm thanking the wi-fi service in Kitchenette, a restaurant located in Plaza Indonesia. Today have been a typical sunday. Nothing special to blog abt, other than abt the phone thing haha. Well, there was smthng funny that happened...

So my dad asked me where to go for lunch, then I said kitchenette! :D so we prepared and head out. Since there was a traffic jam and I was feeling kinda nauseous, I decided to have a nap on the way. When we got here, which is abt 4pm, IT WAS STILL FULL! It's 4pm and it's full?! Oh my dragon!!! Then my dad said, "It's still full at this time? Shi...............t" haha lol, first time I hear my dad say that hahaha...

Anyway, I'll have science test tomorrow :( my problem is remembering the latin names :s wish me luck readers ☺
oh, I almost forgot...

GOOD LUCK TO THE 9TH GRADERS AT MY SCHOOL ON THE FINAL TESTS ☺

Ok, I guess that's it. See ya next time :*

Xo, M

Need You Now - Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor

Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

Woah, woah

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now, I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now

BO-RING DAY

in this post, im gonna tell you about what happened yesterday. so, it was Tuesday (of course-_-) and… well, it was boring. why? cause the two most important people of school is not there! yep, it's my bestfriend chelsea, and my boyfriend gavin. they were absent yesterday and it felt so boring without them. i got some stories i wanna tell chelsea, but she's not there. i need a hug and gavin's not there ☹ i was bored and sad at the same time. (read: galau)

instead… i just follow my friends. where they go, i follow 'em (everywhere except the bathroom kay -,-") and i know it's kinda weird, but most of my friends in my class that i trust, lye my REAL friends, are mostly boys. idk why, i guess the guys are just funner than the girls. (no offense ladies :-D) so, yea.. i just play with the boys. i mean, c'mon. it's better to play with the boys rather than get drunk ryt? hahaha lol.

okay, i guess that's all for now. gotta go to school. let's just hope they both come so i won't be bored lye yesterday. bye :*

xo, M

secrets

hi readers. in this post, i wanna talk about secrets. i won't tell you my secrets, so don't get excited -.-" i believe everybody have secrets. i know you have secrets. you share some of your secrets to your bestfriend/s, some to your boy/girlfriend, some to your family, and some.. you just keep it to yourself. i mean, like your deep dark secret. like, secrets you write in your diary. secrets nobody can't know. but what if, your best-best-best friend wants to know it? part of you say yes, since he/she is your bestfriend and you can always trust him/her. but part of you says no. it's your deep dark, personal, private secret. no one should know about it. only you and yourself can know about it. but, your best friend kept asking you. what'll you do? will you tell it, or keep it? this problem is happening to me. i want to tell, but i can't. this is really making me feel bad. my best friend now acts weird. whenever we chat, my best friend only answers things short, and made the situation awkward. i really want to tell my best friend abt it, but it's just this other side of me that's holding me back!


put yourself in my shoes. wht do u think? wht would u feel? wht will u do? i really need some suggestions. please comment your suggestions in this post or (if you have twitter) direct message me. my account is @minakonut


thanks :(


xo,M

A-Y-U :D

in this post, im gonna write about how i met my best friend (yes, it's not how i met your mother.) her name is ayu. she became my best friend since elementary. wanna know how we met? keep on reading! if ya don't, well just read it :-D


16 June 2006


it was a usual morning. suddenly, alvin (my friend) said "hey, it's ayu birthday today" (we were in 2nd grade, so i apologize for the horrible grammar) then i asked him "who's ayu?" then he said "ayu is my friend from kindergarten." when i arrived in school, i met ayu and i said "happy birthday ayu" and i gave her a big smile :) then she smiled back and asked me "how do you know that today i am happy birthday?" then i told her "alvin tell me just now in my car that today you are happy birthday." at around lunch time, there were many people outside my class and ayu's class, but they seem to be going in her class. then, my teacher asked me and some of my classmates to go to her class. turned out that she was having her birthday party in her class, and i was a last-minute guest! just because i said happy birthday to her, i got invited. W-O-W!


since then, we became best friends! we text each other every day. we could even send around 100 text to each other EACH DAY! we tell each other about our days, and gossip, and just... tell stories! we have a lot of fun. we sometimes hang out too. she's my bestfriend since 2006 - present. i trust her, and i'm sure she trust me too. thanks for being my best friend ayu :'*******

"It's me, I'm a freak. But thanks for loving me, cause your doing it perfectly"

O-Five-One-O-One-O

I guess on this post, imma talk about my relationship with this special boy. His name is Gavin. to me, he's my best friend, brother, the person I go to when I need advice, and the best one, my boyfriend :) we've been together since 5th October 2010. so.. it's been about 4 months, almost 5.

I still remember the night he asked me to become his girlfriend. I was shocked, happy, excited, and... well, I can't describe the feeling! I had a crush since 5th grade if I'm not mistaken. I never thought he'd ever have feelings for me. I mean, i'm just a junior. I just thought that i was "invisible" to him. when i was a 6th grader, I told my best friend about my feeling. she then said "he's not your type." yeah i was kinda crushed, cause she's like his sister a.k.a best friend. but thankfully, my feelings to never changed. in fact, it became stronger! i got his email address and added him on my IM account. we then chat every time we're online. it's cool. he never knew that i like him. when one night, he told me how he feel and ask me the question :'D

I still remember it. after i said "yes" to him, i chatted with my bro and sis, rezha and chelsea. at that time, there was a gossip about me and jovan (REMEMBER! nothing happened between me and him. we just became best friends, that's it.) and then rezha asked me "are u single?" and i said "yes" HAHAHA!! it was HILARIOUS!

Tuesday, 5th October 2010. the best day of my junior high life, thanks to you my boy :*

xo, M

14 February 2011

okay, since i posted abt my past valentines, my blog readers wanted to know about my 2011 valentine. well, there's not much that I can say. it was.... pretty usual ._. it's just like any kind of days to me haha. didn't get any chocolate tho (i got them actually, but not on that day haha). so... yeaaaaa nothing really special that day. it was just an ordinary monday to me :)


so, that's it._. flat huh? hahaha i kno.


xo, M

14 February Mystery

well, many people keep asking me about my 14th February memory. so, since im so sick of those damn questions, im just gonna tell the reason here.


14 February 2006


I had a crush on this guy in my class. i guess you can call it my "first crush" or what so ever, but this guy turned out to be super annoying so i regret ever liking lol.


14 February 2007


it was valentines day and in our art class, our teacher ask us to make a valentine card and give it to someone in class. after school, i found three card laying in my locker. they're from Bryan, Willy, and Alvin. bryan and willy tried to impress me by giving me chocolates and candy, while alvin just do... nothing ._. and, i stupidly "dated" willy lol. why? cause he dumped me just because my tim won in soccer and his team lost. BOO!


14 February 2008


well, this is the start of my longest relationship so far. so, in the morning, there were 2 guys in my class, marvin and rifki, then, i gave a piece of paper, gave it to marvin, then ran away from class and didn't go in until the bell rang, i was hiding and i heard my friend's conversation


Andana: "WILLY! MIRNA LIKES MARVIN!"
Willy: "GOOD THEN! MARVIN ALSO LIKE MIRNA!"


when i heard this, i was flying sky high! i was sooooo happy! and then, marvin gave me a chocolate at lunch time. awww :3 then, at social studies class, we were having a project. my teacher were dividing us into groups. then he said "okay, group one. Marvin, Mirna.." and before he finished, everybody in the class said "CIEEEEEEE" and i was blushing! my cheeks were as red as a tomato. the relationship lasted for 2 years. cool ryt? but we weren't really serious haha


well, that's my 14 february "mystery" what so ever. if anybody asks abt this? tell him/her/them to see me blog? kay? ;)))


xo, M

Tell The Story!

so yesterday, there was this english competition in a school in Depok. spelling bee for the elementary and story telling for the junior high. I wish I'm in elementary, cause I prefer spelling bee than story telling -_-"


so the junior high who joined are Chelsea, Della, Rezha, Michelle, and me. the elementary who joined are Darryl, Diva, Dara, Tabina, and 1 more who I forgot (really sorry) hehehe.. the teachers who accompanied us were ms. anna and ms. putri. so we went to the school with the school's Travello B) hahaha... on the way, the BRIGHTEEN were the ones making the most noise! hahaha lol! everybody was quiet but us. what the hell, this is who we are! haha...


so when we arrived, we registered and take a look around. we were kinda intimidated cause almost everybody there got their costume's on and their props ready. us? we were in our uniforms and we didn't bring a lot of props. so we just knew that we will be in different rooms. then, when we re-registered, we got our numbers. chelsea got number 1, della number 2, rezha number 11, i got number 12, and michelle number 13. so, we got into our classes, wait for the judge to come, and begin the competition. when we started, suddenly the speaker said smthng but the point is "stop the story telling cause we want to start the spelling bee". deep inside, im saying "so what?!" HAHA.. and no offense, and don't mean to brag, but their english is "not too good" haha... I guess I cant explain how "not good" they are in writing, cause it's their pronunciation that's mistaken haha.


so, after around 2 hours of being in a class with ppl I dunno and I was freezing there, the 'lady' finally said "thank you for entering. you may go out and you can see the results in 30 minutes" and I wen't outside. I was sooo happy to see della outside! then we just chat. a few minutes later, comes chelsea, then michelle, then rezha haha.. after that, we just eat and go to the canteen to buy some drinks. then, we went to the hall bcs the judge's gonna announce the participants who's going to the finals. aand... no junior high passed. we do feel a little down, but we feel happy directly. the fact is, we didn't lost. it's just not out time to win yet :-) haha... so, even tho we didn't pass, we still gotta wait for the elemntary student cos they passed to the finals. so, while waiting for them, we buy some pop ice, gossip, then buy more pop ice hahaha... after that, ms anna called me and said that everybody's finished and it's time to go home. we met back at the yard and then we all went home. first, we take della and rezha near their house first, then back to our beloved school. in that day, I just realized that Darryl is super duper extra CUTE! i mean like, ADORABLE kinda cute okay -_-" haha...


okay, so on our way back was probably the best part of the day! so the story is... ceci (nickname for chelsea), della and I hold our 'pee' for hours since the bathroom there is not "clean". then, della, our depok-er, told us about a restroom nearby. so we stopped there, and we pee ._. ceci and I went in first. when i got out, ceci was still inside! so i asked her "hey! u havin the time ur life?!" then we all just laugh hahaha! then, me and ceci get back to the car first. ceci ran to the care, barefoot. then, SHE ALMOST GOT HIT BY A MOTORCYCLE! ckckck... then, when in the car and ready to head back to the road, rezha played The Time (Dirty Bit) - BEP and we just sing along hahaha....


well, actually more things happened that day. but i can't tell ya all of them, sorry. keep reading my blog, much love :*


xo, M

Nothing - The Script

at the moment, i'm in LOVE with a song by The Script. it's called Nothing. it's about wanting to go back after a breakup and no matter what you do, that person comes up in your mind and you'd do anything to get that person back. it's a really good song. if i dump a guy and that guy sing me this song, i might think over about going back together again. so here's the lyrics to the song:

Am I better off dead

Am I better off a quitter

They say I'm better off now

Then I ever was with her

As they take me to my local down the street

I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her

But after one too many I know that I'm never

Only they can see where this is gonna end

But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

[Chorus]

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down

'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town

I'm swearing if I go there now

I can change her mind turn it all around

I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words, 

And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred, 

So I dialed her number and confessed to her, 

I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing...)

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences

I know I'm with her face to face, that she'll come to her senses 

Every drunk step and path leads me to her door

If she sees how much I'm hurting

She'll take me back for sure

[Chorus]

She said nothing (nothing nothing)

Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh I got nothing

Nothing

I got nothing

Nothing

Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh sometimes love's intoxicating

Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking

When you realize there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead

Am I better off a quitter

They say I'm better off now

Than I ever was with her

[Chorus]

She said nothing (Nothing, nothing...)

Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...)

I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...)

Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...)

I got nothing, I got nothing

wanna download the song? 4shared.com got it so go check it out!

xo, M

promoting those who wanna be promoted :D

okay, so last week, i tweeted "RT if you want me to write smthng abt you on my blog. good things only, I promise :D" and the ppl who RT are:

- eli

- yvoi

- nindya

- kak andin

- and.... gavin (-_________-")

okay, so let's start talking about these awesome people!

ELI

okay, she's one of my best-best friends. she's kind, crazy (in a good way), and she's an awesome friend! fyi, she's single ;) hahaha lol. i've known her since the 1st grade. wanna know more about her? go follow her on twitter @elizabethravva! just mention her if you want her to follow you back ;)

YVOI

she's my friend that I knew from twitter. I know her since she's my friend's new friend in her new school. she's  kind and easy-going. she taken so, sorry guys XD hahaha.... she's kind and she's the kind of person you wanna be friends with. go follow her on twitter @Yvoi_kLovinszky :D

NINDYA

like yvoi, I knew her from the amazing twitter world. she's an awesome friend. she's the kind of person you go to if you wanna know her. go and get to know her better via twitter! her username is @nindyaww ;D

KAK ANDIN

how do i know her? twitter. what's my relationship with her? well, she's the best friend of my cousin's girlfriend. she's really kind. she's a belieber (read: justin bieber's fan). her dream is to be a designer living in LONDON! she's currently a 10th grader. she's really awesome! she's also funny. go follow her on twitter to know her better @rzandini :)

okay, now it's gavin's turn.

well, idk where to start! hahahaha... he's a 9th grader, he's my senior. he's really funny, awesome guy and..... well he's mine so bitch, ya better step back :p hahaha... and umm..... well, he's a really awesome friend. he's really good to talk to and you can always ask him for advice *coughs* hahaha.... go follow him on twitter @gavincycode ;)

okay, that's all for now. see ya on my next post. keep on reading! :D

xo, M

sick saturday :&

it's saturday. weekend is here! sadly, something is making me not-really-happy. yep, i got the cold. i keep sneezing and coughing every minute. it's killing me! not a good way to start the weekend :( however, thanks to the cold, I skipped my tae kwon do lesson \m/ all I do at home is just eat, drink the medicines, and go online B) there are things i hate about medicines. i gotta swallow 15 pills everyday, and everytime i drink my cough syrup, i sneeze :& also, i lost my voice after all those coughing. then, whenever there's a little wind, my body shivers. i feel soo cold! yep. i got the cold and the fever. perfect weekend!


what makes it worse? HOMEWORKS!
no, i'm not talking abt my math homework, but my social studies and Indonesian homework. in my social homework, i gotta talk about what i wanna be in the future and what are my strategies to achieve it. 2 problemos. i DO NOT know what i wanna be, and i forgot to bring my social studies notebook home. next homework --> Indonesian. (quick info: i'm an indonesian but i can't speak Indonesian in the right grammar fluently LOL) so, for my homework, i gotta make a biography about my mom. gotta type and print it, font size equals 10, minimum 3 pages. when i heard my teacher say this, something inside me die a little. HOW CAN I POSSIBLY DO IT? okay, so I told my mom about the assignment. she said "3 pages? your teacher has nothing to do but give you that kind of assignment huh?" and worse, my printers broken. told my dad about it and he said "print 3 pages? ask your teachers to do it" -____-"


so my mom and I did the homework. we spent 2 hours doing it. results? only 1 page +_____+ i am SO dead! even my mom don't know what else to write about herself in the biography. so, we just left it like that.


well, there is one thing today that makes me happy. it's the 5th day of the month. it's my 4th monthly-versary with my boyfriend :3 love you boy :***


well, have a nice saturday everyone! peace, love, freedom.


xo, M 

my 2 fave pic

FOREVER YOUNG <3

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6B: the members and description

in this post, Imma tell ya about my classmates when I was in 6th grade :D all the names are alphabetically ordered by their nicknames :D


• ADEA
she's the smart girl in my class. in 6th grade, she LOVED justin bieber and lady gaga A LOT! she has small yet neat handwriting which I love! her funny nicknames by the class? Mushroom Head (kepala jamur) bcs of her hairstyle (willy said this, not me -_-V)

• ANDANA

he's a pain in the "back". he's weird, he's a freak. he can turn his hand ALMOST 360 degrees. he's the one with the most ex-es in my class. USED to by my best friend.

• ALDWIN 

he loves IT. he stepped on my glasses in 6th grade. he's a rival of andana. idk why, he just hates him. he doesn't even want to sit/be in a group with him lol.

• ASHAA

she's the oddball of my class, but I treat her the same like others. she's more of a quiet, shy girl. she mostly talk to Ms. Komang, our classroom teacher. she's kinda enemies with Ruth. nickname: Jackpot

• AYU

she's an awesome best friend. we met in 2nd grade and became best friends instantly. she doesn't live too far from my house so I see her often. I don't think she has a nickname._.

• CHELSEA

she's my best best best best best friend eveeerrr!!!! she's the sister I never had! we share secrets to each other. she understands me, and I understand her. we're like soulmates since we say the same thing together or same things happen to us :D

• GIBRAN

this guy's pretty cool. I've known him since preschool. cool huh? hahaha.. he kinda have long nails. in our "freestyle" class photo, he posed a "pepsodent smile" :D

• HIZKIA

he's also an oddball. he used to hide under tables in break time and hide somewhere in school if he's pissed. but to me, he's pretty cool. chelsea and I called him the 'unique' boy. he totally shocked the whole school when they found out he got the 2nd highest score in the national exams.

• JOVAN

he loves science, especially experimenting. his favorite experiments are the ones related to magnets or electricity. he used to be best friends with andana. in junior high, I got to know him better and now he's my bro! :D

• MICHAEL

he's a math lover, like me! he dated my best friend, dumped her, then date my other best friend -____-" he was andana's best friend too. he's kinda a gamer.

• well, this is supposed to be abt me, but I dont wanna talk about my self :D

• NINO

he's the soccer addict. I think he's the one that thinks "negatively" the most in my class. he joined my school-car since kindergarten. there's more abt him that I won't tell here HAHA

• RAFI

he's kinda annoying, but sometimes very funny. he has a cool hairstyle back in the days. idk what else to write about him haha peace -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-v

• RUTH

ruth!! she's the giant of our class (no offense) she's funny, silly, but sometimes super annoying. she once get yelled at ashaa and believe me, IT WAS HILARIOUS! she has this long, black curly hair.

• SANTI

SANTI!!! she's  my skinny friend! like seriously, she's so skinny.. she has short curly black hair. funny moment: I wanted to say "Santi, you're so cute like a doll" but instead I said "Santi, you're so cute like a BALL" HAHAHA good times, good times

• WILLY

and last but not least, WILLY! I don't think any ex-member of 6B can forget him. he is such a blabber mouth. he talks a lot, and his words are full of crap (a.k.a bullshitting all day long~) funny thing about him? hmm.. let's see.. if he pulls his ears, he looks like a monkey :3 hahaha... oh, and in the class photo, he showed his middle finger and no teachers notice! XD lol! in class, we call him Bucket Snout (?) (Ember Bacot) since he keep talking crap.

well, that's it! those are my classmates in 6th grade. I really miss them and really wanna meet them again. LOVE YA GUYS! :*

xo, M